you know the saying ... "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" ... I haven't posted much or blogged for a while ... everytime I go to blog, I just don't have anything nice or meaningful to say. In an effort of being barefoot ... I have to be honest ... I'm in a funk!
Oh, how I want to shake this funk! I still feel cruddy which is making me not enjoy this pregnancy. Many of you know how I love to be pregnant and it just breaks my heart to not enjoy it. My kids are so annoying me and then I feel crappy about being annoyed. My poor husband just can't seem to do enough and I just want to sleep. So, what to do? I'm praying as much as feel like it, honestly. My prayers are more like "God, give me a freakin break" than anything else. I so desire to soften my heart because I know God has got me cradled in His care and that He knows how I feel and He's not upset with me for prayers. I also know He wants me to submit to Him and let Him take care of me. I keep praying to feel better so I can be the wife, mom and friend I so desire to be. I know there are lessons learned even in this time for my family but honestly ... I don't want lessons right now, I just want to feel better!
I've learned along my journey that I don't need to feel guilty for these feelings. I'm full aware of the gift this pregnancy is and I also know I could be much worse off but for today in my little barefoot world ... I'm pregnant, feeling crappy and in a funk! ..... and I just smiled, then started crying after admitting that ... thanks for letting me share, my dear barefoot Friends!
ohh Heather... hugs to you. All my pregnancies were like that and I could not wait to hold that little one after those 9 months cuz that is when I feel all that joy again. Praying for you :-)
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ReplyDeleteYour amazing and its good to share all the emotions so women know its o.k.! Hang in there and know you were a blessing to me when we spoke last. I'll be praying for you and feeling better!
ReplyDeleteYour totally normal and don't feel guilty. I go through the same feelings during the first trimester and I have a secret, each first trimester gets harder because there are more children to care for then the last time so it can be very trying. Keep the final prize in sight though because it will all be worth it! xoxo
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